gofasterrabbit

witching hour polls and random musings

It has been so long since I felt myself. Really. Felt. Myself. My. Self. MySelf. Whatever that is. I feel like I am just pretending to be me. I’ve been pretending for a while now. So long in fact that MySelf is starting to have a hazy quality. A nostalgic quality. An image in a …

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Finally feeling as though I have shaken off last year’s warm weighted blanket. Finally stretching, blinking my eyes open, and lifting my head to scan the horizon and quietly slip out of the lingering heaviness. Feet still bare. Eyes still a little blurry. Covers of still turned back in case I need to retreat. Have …

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I woke this morning to the news that Gordon Downie had passed away after a long, hard-fought battle against cancer. My heart stopped beating and my lungs froze. Time stood still as my cells adjusted to this horrible new reality. Shifting themselves into a new constellation … one that (out of necessity) would try to …

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Day 8 of of my 2-week doctor-ordered leave from work and here’s what I’ve noticed so far. I need more blank spaces in my day. In my life. Having room to breathe and think has been the biggest miracle of the last 7 days. I have started to realize just how much I typically try …

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I’m part of the way through day 2 of a leave from work that my doctor has ordered me to take so that I can allow my body to heal and recover and rejuvenate … find some of the vitality I’ve lost … repair my shattered immune system and give my little adrenals a bit …

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